Child's Play
Satsuki was grumbling under his breath, the nervousness and stress of waiting in the Backstage room, dressed in one of his odd Visual Kei like outfits, which made him look like a woman, was not even close to helping his mood at the moment. Not that he didn't feel comfortable wearing such odd costumes like this. The thing had taken him at least 30 damn minutes to put on, and that in his opinion was way too long.
You could pretty fucking much cut the tension in the air with a butter knife, and it seemed he wasn't the only one who was stressed out of their fucking minds. Though they tried not to show it as much, when Satsuki turned to look at his fellow bandmates, and close friends for over 4 years now. Satsuki pondered things in his head as he took a look at them.
Shun and Ryo were in the corner talking quietly, they didn't show any nervousness, or if they were, they were doing a damn good job of hiding it. Mika was twirling his drumsticks nervously between his fingers, dressed up in some weird outfit. Satsuki wondered sometimes who ever made their outfits, why they always made his look like a girl's, even though they were Visual Kei, and it was normal for Visual Kei bands to wear this sort of stuff.
His dark orbs then turned to look at his best friend, the man that had stuck with him since the beginning of Rentrer en Soi itself, Takumi. His confidant, a man that he could always trust to not fail him or give up perhaps. At the moment Takumi was making sure his guitar was tuned up enough for his part in the performance.
Satsuki turned away after taking in everyone's status, closing his eyes he attempted to take a breath of calmness, rolling his shoulders a little, trying to get the kinks out of the hardened muscles there. Cursing in Japanese under his breath as a nerve started to pinch. "Fuck...damn it..." He gripped at the pained area of his neck, wincing.
"Oi, Satsuki-San, are you alright?" enquired a certain someone behind him.
"Fuck! My fucking neck hurts..." Satsuki shouted pretty loudly, which was not normal for the Vocalist to really do, seeing the man was usually quiet at most. He bent over slightly, trying to stop his neck from hurting. The poor man was almost in tears at this point from the pain.
Satsuki went to stand up straight, when he felt a pair of cool hands attempt to massage at his neck. He then heard a voice whisper into his ear.
"Sit down Satsuki-Kun...your too stressed out right now, that's probably why your neck hurts."
Only one person was allowed to call him 'Satsuki-Kun', and immediately the vocalist did as he was told to, grabbing a chair, the light brown haired man sat down and bent his head down a little so that the fingers that were attempting to rub out the kinks and nasty pain, could do their job. Satsuki hissed slightly in pain every once in awhile as the fingers massaged and rubbed.
Satsuki's eyes fluttered closed as the pain started to slip slowly away in time. He heard Shun, Mika, and Ryo's footsteps heading for another room. How long was it going to take for this concert to get started? Satsuki wondered. He then let a yelp and a curse in Japanese out.
"Fuck, watch it! That hurt..." He growled.
"Sumimasen Leader-Sama...your nerves in your neck have all scrunched up into a nerve ball..." spoke Takumi softly to him.
Satsuki grunted softly before the pain subsized after Takumi continued to rub his neck a little longer. The vocalist then let out a small groan of appericiation as the pain started to really disappear. Takumi seemed to have really good hands when it came to this.
"Arigatou gozaimasu Takumi-Kun..." Satsuki said softly, the pressure in his neck having gone away pretty much now. Turning to gaze up at his best friend as he said this, the two of them locked eyes with each other for a few minutes.
"Guys we gotta get set up..." Called Mika from the door, and immediately stopped in his tracks at the scene he saw in front of him. "Oookkaayyy then...I'll just be out there then..." Mika then turned tail and ran, leaving the two men, who at this very moment were lip locked with each other.
Hands groped and gripped at the other, as the two of them kissed, before Satsuki had to pull away for air. Takumi looked slightly dazed for a moment, but his own dark eyes held something there, that the Vocalist couldn't quite put his finger on at the moment. The vocalist then suddenly felt shy and embarassed by the kiss that Takumi had initated, Satsuki's face becoming a light shade of pink; the vocalist then quickly stood and spoke.
"We better get out of here and get this concert on the go..."
Takumi was not going to allow his best friend to get away with this. Just as Satsuki was near the exit to the room, the blonde stormed over to the vocalist and pushed him against the wall, after placing his guitar in a safe place for the time being.
"No...the fans can wait an extra few minutes, I want to tell you something...please listen to me Satsuki-Kun..." pleaded the young man, in a soft voice.
Satsuki turned to give the blonde a hard stare for a moment, but when he saw the pleading look in his friend's eyes, how could he not resist but to listen to what it was that Takumi had to say. He had always listened to Takumi's judgements and words before, and perhaps half of these judgements had lead Satsuki to make the right decisions when it had come to the success of Rentrer en Soi.
"Alright, I'll listen to what you have to say Takumi-Kun..." said the vocalist quietly as he attempted to push gently past the blonde and went to sit down on the couch. Though Satsuki was on edge right now, he didn't want to disappoint the fans if they didn't get a good show tonight.
Takumi was nervous as he paced slightly to and fro in front of Satsuki, as if deep in thought for a few minutes before the man finally stopped pacing and turned to face Satsuki.
"Satsuki..." Takumi began to say, "I think I'm...I'm in love with you..."
Satsuki's eyes were slightly wide in shock, had Takumi just said what he thought he had said?
"Takumi-Kun, can you repeat what you just said? I didn't quite hear you..."
Takumi sighed and went to sit down on his haunches in front of Satsuki, his eyes looking slightly sad. "I said I'm in love with you Satsuki-San..." he repeated softly, yet loud enough for Satsuki to hear him.
Satsuki didn't know what else to say to Takumi, he was surprised, that the blonde all this time had feelings for him to say the least. He was flattered, and yet he thought this was just totally wrong.
"Takumi...you do realize that I'm a guy, and your a guy right? We can't have this..." Satsuki attempted to start saying.
"Fuck what the others say..." Growled Takumi. "They don't have to know about our business..." "What's most important is that if...forget it...just forget what I said to you..."
Satsuki was a little shocked at Takumi's words, and watched as the blonde attempted to walk towards the door. Satsuki quickly stood up and spoke.
"Takumi-Kun...wait...please..." He pleaded softly.
Takumi shook his head, "Come on, we have a Live to do..." spoke the blonde.
Satsuki quickly walked over to the blonde and grabbed him in a hug. "I want to fix things now before we go out there on the stage. Like you said...the fans can wait a little longer...." He said in a soothing tone.
Takumi sighed and nodded, trying to hide the pain in his eyes that he was no doubt feeling, Satsuki was going to reject him no doubt. Takumi had fallen in love with the feminine man probably the day they had formed Rentrer en Soi, he had been a bit jealous whenever Satsuki would get close to Shun or Ryo whenever they were off stage.
Satsuki attempted to stare into Takumi's eyes, trying to read what the man was thinking at the moment. He sighed and whispered softly.
"You really do love me don't you Takumi-kun?" It really wasn't a statement more of an observation, it would make sense to Satsuki, Takumi's behaviour, Mika had mentioned something like this before happening to Satsuki, the vocalist would just brush it off and ignore it.
"Hai...Leader-Sama..." Takumi said softly, a slight blush lighting his pale cheeks up, quickly lowering his head as if in shame at admitting his feelings.
Satsuki chuckled at being called Leader-sama, and reached over to touch the man's cheek almost lovingly. He then whispered.
'Well I guess then, I feel almost the same way about you then Takumi-Kun..." He paused for a moment, before kissing the man on the lips gently.
Takumi's eyes were a little bit wide when he heard Satsuki confess that he returned the same feelings then felt Satsuki's soft lips touch his in a kiss. The blonde let out a soft groan before kissing the man right back. The Vocalist's lips were so warm and soft, the guitarist would have to get used to kissing them or feeling them for that matter on different parts of his body.
This made Takumi want to devour the man even more but just as he went to grab the back of Satsuki's neck gently to deepen the kiss; the two of them were interrupted by a clearing of three people's throats.
Takumi and Satsuki quickly broke away from the kiss when they heard chuckling coming from two of their bandmates, and a startled look that was quite comical on Ryo's face. Both faces were reddened from being caught and from embarassement.
"Whenever you two are finished making out, we have a Live and probably over 5, 000 fans here to entertain." said Mika in a teasing tone.
Takumi just grabbed Satsuki around the shoulders and stuck his tongue out, before giving Mika the middle finger.
"Can't a guy fucking kiss his lover in fucking peace before the show starts? Geezus..." grunted an embarassed Takumi.
Satsuki blushed even more and began to giggle, they hadn't even been together 5 minutes and already Takumi was claiming to be his and such. Shaking his head, he then said.
"Alright guys lets go out there and fucking rock this entire place until the building falls apart!" He then watched the others yell out their own confirmations and then walked out of the room.
Satsuki smiled and quickly walked out of the room, but before he did, he grabbed Takumi's hand and gave it a gentle squeeze before getting in the right line up as was their custom to do. Tonight was going to be quite eventful it would seem.
The concert went as expected, they managed to entertain the fans, and also did two encores for that night. All of them no doubt feeling the rush from it all. Satsuki and the others were saying all their good byes to each other and to the staff. Satsuki grabbed Takumi by the shoulder and pushed the blonde against the wall when no one was in sight of catching them.
Takumi winced as he was shoved against the wall by his new boyfriend and stared down at the shorter man. "What?" He asked, but was silenced by the vocalist's soft lips on his own. Takumi's eyes closed and he immediately kissed him back, letting a soft groan escape his lips, as his arms wrapped around Satsuki's shoulders, pulling the feminine man closer to him.
Satsuki smirked against the kiss and continued to kiss the guitarist until they both needed to pull away for air. Satsuki then eyed Takumi, before saying between gasps.
"I want you...right now..."
Takumi pulled away to stare at his Band leader and boyfriend for a moment and chuckled. "Impatient aren't we to get home to bed are we?" He whispered into Satsuki's ear, nibbling on the lobe afterwards, sending shivers of delight down his soon to be lover's back.
Satsuki growled softly and eyed Takumi. "Stop teasing me...and come on..." He then grabbed Takumi's hand and began heading for the exit. Takumi just allowed the smaller man to lead him, chuckling as he did so.
Thank goodness there was no one else on the elevators as they rode up to the floor where Takumi's apartment was. The blonde growled lustily at Satsuki as he felt the man's hands attempt to go up his shirt.
"Hey hey! If you keep this up I'll end up taking you here now before we even get into my place...slow down, we have all night..." spoke Takumi with a small purr to his tone. He then leaned down and kissed Satsuki's pouty lips as the man had the look of a child that wasn't allowed a toy that he really wanted.
The vocalist then attempted to behave himself long enough for them to get off the elevator, and to Takumi's door which was at the end of the corridor to the left of the elevator. Takumi then grabbed Satsuki and pinned him to the door this time, and kissed the man roughly on the lips, stealing the vocalist's breath away. Satsuki just gasped, which allowed Takumi's tongue to slip into the vocalist's mouth, tasting the essence of him.
The two men then groaned softly against each other's mouths, tongues and teeth battling for dominance, in the end Takumi won out. The blonde quickly fumbled for his keys to his apartment, managing to find them while still kissing Satsuki, finally getting the damn things out of his pockets, he then attempted to unlock the door, while also attempting to grope his lover with his free hand.
Satsuki pulled away from the kiss to regain his breath, while allowing his lover to unlock and open the door. Once that task was done, he felt Takumi push him into the hallway of the apartment. Both of them kicking their shoes off at the door, not caring at the moment where they landed and such, before the two of them were lip locked again, after Takumi kicked the door shut and locked it behind them.
Satsuki wrapped his arms again around the blonde as their tongues fought again for dominance, loosing that battle once more, he felt Takumi's hands run through his soft light brown hair then felt the fingers trail down the back of his neck and began to massage the tense muscles there, that had been massaged before. He then felt Takumi's lips trail small tiny kisses against his ear then along his jaw before finally going down to his neck. The feminine man then moaned softly and tilted his head to the side to give the blonde more access to the delicate pale flesh of his neck.
The guitarist then leaned down and began sucking gently on the flesh that was presented to him, nipping every so often. The sounds coming out of his lover's lips were music to his ears, and he planned to have him make a whole lot more.
Takumi then pulled away, and spoke into Satsuki's ear, "Satsuki...let's go to the couch, come on..."
Satsuki then nodded and allowed himself to be lead to the living room of Takumi's apartment. Once they were near the couch, the two of them shared another kiss, this one chaste and more gentle. The light haired man then felt Takumi's hands go to his shirt and began to lift it up, the vocalist quickly helping the man remove his shirt without much hassle. The shorter man attempted to then remove his lover's own shirt, which his hands were gently slapped away, the smaller man looked up at Takumi in question for a moment.
"I'll do it, just strip the rest of your clothing off for me Satsuki..." spoke the Blonde. Satsuki then complied with the guitarist's command and began stripping the rest of his clothing off him, stealing a few peeks at his lover as he saw the blonde began to strip himself down.
The man was pretty muscular for someone who pretty much spent his time playing guitar all day. The vocalist allowed his eyes to travel further down Takumi's body, immediately blushing as he looked at a particular part of Takumi. He was big, just put it that way. The small man then attempted to focus on removing the rest of his clothing, hands that were trembling made it quite difficult to remove his pants. It took him a moment to steady his hands but he finally managed to push his pants and boxers down to his feet, kicking them out of the way afterwards, left in only his socks.
He felt Takumi's hungry eyes on his naked form briefly before he felt the guitarist wrap his arms around the naked vocalist, a heavy blush crept onto his cheeks a little bit as he finally looked up into Takumi's eyes, dropping them back down to his feet. He felt the guitarist's long fingers underneath his chin, lifting his eyes to meet his before leaning down to kiss the vocalist on the lips.
Satsuki moaned into the kiss and attempted to return the favor as best as he could, hands moving up to touch the guitarist's chest. His touches were unsure and perhaps shy a little. The man had never really done this sort of thing with another man before. Takumi groaned softly as he felt the smaller man's hands run up and down his chest. Pulling out of the kiss he then pulled Satsuki into his lap as he went to sit downon the couch, before kissing him again passionately.
Satsuki made a soft squeak when he was pulled onto Takumi's lap so forcefully, arms quickly wrapping themselves around the taller's neck to right himself, before returning the kiss immediately once again, while attempting to rub his body up against the guitarist's slightly. The two broke the kiss after tongue battling, but this did not stop Takumi from planting soft kisses along the vocalist's pale neck, earning him a soft cry of pleasure.
The guitarist smirked slightly and began sucking gently at the exposed flesh, reaching up to gently tilt Satsuki's neck a little to the side, exposing more of the deliciously pale skin, returning to his task quickly he then bit down lightly on the flesh, sucking a hickey into his neck. His lover responded to the roughness with a loud groan, thank goodness they didn't have another Live for a few days,
"Takumi..." the vocalist groaned softly, his hands trailed down the guitarist's body a little, scratching his chest lightly. "Onegai....please just take me..."
"Your not ready yet..." Takumi quickly spoke, stopping himself from licking small trails up and down the man's neck. "I want your first time with me to be special..." The guitarist spoke with slight shock to his voice, he knew Satsuki had never done this with a man before, the guitarist wanted to make it a special time for the love of his life.
"I know...I just don't think I can handle being teased too much longer...I'm still on the rush from the Live, and I know you are too..." spoke Satsuki as he looked up with a cute if not adorable pleading look to his dark eyes.
Takumi sighed and then nodded his head, "You'll have to do me a favor first before we get to the best part..." He then leaned to Satsuki's ear and whispered something. The vocalist immediately blushed and nodded his head quickly, slowly getting off of Takumi's lap and got down to his knees in front of Takumi, spreading them gently open with his trembling hands as he stared up at his lover for a moment.
The guitarist did his best to give his shorter lover encouragement with his eyes. His hands went to Satsuki's hair and gently stroked it a little with his fingers. This gave the vocalist all he needed to fight back the voices inside of his head telling him he should not continue on with this, that it was wrong. Slowly the man reached out and took his lover's length into his hand, gently caressing it with his finger tips, it was almost as thick as his entire hand. He heard the blonde man gasp and groan softly at his touches. This encouraged him a little more and he bent down and kissed the tip of the engorged length,
Takumi continued to stroke his lover's hair, watching through half lidded eyes as the man kissed the tip of him, even catching a glimpse of his pink tongue darting out to lick the tip of him. He let out a soft groan, getting more turned on by watching his love tease him in that way.
Satsuki took a deep breath and finally after a few more minutes of using his tongue on the tip, he took the head of Takumi into his mouth carefully. He felt the guitarist's hands in his hair immediately tighten and heard another groan coming out of his lover's lips. He knew he was doing something right by hearing and feeling that reaction. The vocalist began slowly taking more of his cock into his mouth, bobbing slowly up and down for a few minutes. Trying to push away the ache in his own erection, and the fact pleasing Takumi was a big turn on for him, he attempted to take more of the length into his mouth as best as he could.
The blonde's eyes fluttered closed, and began to buck his hips slightly, trying his best not to choke or hurt his lover as he let out a loud moan." Thats it, uhn...Satsuki..." he murmured, his voice deepened with lust. Groaning he felt himself on the verge of his own climax. He quickly sat up and pulled Satsuki gently away from his cock.
"Okay okay enough, I don't want to come yet, still have to give you, your own pleasure..." spoke Takumi, looking down into the confused blinking eyes of the vocalist, his lips were swollen slightly from sucking on his cock. He lifted the man up to his feet then kissed him gently on the lips, the kiss being chaste and also quite gentle. They pulled away after another minute.
"Sit in my lap Satsuki..." commanded the guitarist gently. The vocalist quickly obeyed him and got back into his lap, wrapping his arms around the man's neck carefully once again. Takumi then brought two of his fingers to his mouth and began to get them wet as best as he could, once he felt that they were slick enough, he gently moved them, pecking Satsuki's lips. "I'm going to prepare you, even if this won't help as much with how painful it is..." He whispered to the vocalist, before gently inserting one slick finger.
The vocalist winced slightly as he felt Takumi's long calloused finger enter his hole, he immediately attempted to relax himself as best as he could. Feeling Takumi's lips on his shoulder, as if trying to help him relax, or comfort him as the guitarist attempted to stretch him. It only took 5 minutes before Satsuki felt a second damp finger being pressed into him, he groaned as his lover began to make scissoring motions, curling and uncurling his fingers inside of him.
Satsuki winced in slight pain, but was quickly snapping his eyes open, a moan of pleasure, and a quiver of his body as he felt Takumi strike something inside of him. "Tak...Takumi..." He whimpered. "Please...I'm ready now..."
Takumi silenced the man with a kiss before gently removing his fingers after another few moments of stretching him. He then grabbed the smaller man by his hips carefully, while still kissing him. The vocalist got the hint and quickly reached below him and grabbed his lover's throbbing length, slowly lifting himself up until he could feel the tip of his lover's ache touching him. Slowly he then guided him into himself, both men immediately groaned either in pleasure or pain or the combination of the two of them.
Satsuki continued though to lower himself, whimpering slightly in pain, but finally managing to get Takumi's full length into him, he then stopped moving entirely, wincing and breathing heavily as he tried to get used to Takumi's size. Takumi immediately began kissing his shoulders, neck and ears, distractingly. He didn't dare move until his smaller lover was ready and used to his length being buried into him.
"I love you my Satsuki-Hime..." whispered Takumi. "Aishiteru Takumi-koi..." sobbed Satsuki softly, tears brimming the corner of his eyes from the pain. The blonde quickly leaned up and kissed his tears away, stroking his beloved one's curly tresses. After a few more minutes, Satsuki slowly lifted himself up, signalling he was ready to continue until only the head of Takumi's cock was inside of him, he then quickly slammed back down, both men groaning softly in pleasure.
Takumi's hands moved quickly to grip the vocalist's hips, trying to steady his lover and also get a good angle as Satsuki lifted himself up again and slammed back down, groaning more louder at the feel of the vocalist's tight heat surrounding his length. The guitarist then began thrusting more deeper into Satsuki, aiming to find that one spot that would bring his lover to the brink of climax, having had enough of this slow tortorous pace.
Satsuki's moans were beautiful, as he attempted to ride his lover's big toy as best as he could at the pace Takumi wanted to go at, his bangs falling into his eyes as he attempted to meet his guitarist's thrusts by pushing himself downwards, sweat covering both of their bodies.
"Takumi...ah..ah..harder...ugh..." he cried out. The blonde quickly complied with his lover's words, not wanting to deny his hime anything. He then started thrusting harder into the smaller man's willing body, his grip on his hips tightening to the point that there would definately be bruises come the morning. Takumi felt his own orgasm rising slowly inside of his body, he quickened his pace a little, thrusting as fast as he could, striking Satsuki's prostate almost on every thrust, earning more loud and wanton noises from Satsuki.
Whimpering, Satsuki reached with a free hand and began stroking himself as best as he could to each of his beloved's thrusts, knowing he was so close to his own climax. "Ta...Takumiii...." He moaned, his body shaking slightly.
"Come for me Satsuki-hime..." Takumi spoke between pants, thrusting a few more times into his lover's tightness. Hearing those words, and the last two thrusts into his body finally made Satsuki come. The vocalist letting out a scream of 'Takumi' as his white sticky essence shot out and hit Takumi's chest and stomach, and even his own hand and stomach.
Watching his lover's face wracked in pleasure from his climax, brought the guitarist finally to his own end, groaning loudly. "Satsuki..." He thrusted one more, twice more and then came finally inside of his lover's heat.
Both men collapsed into a sweaty heap of tangled limbs, against the couch, Satsuki's head nestled into the crook of Takumi's sweaty neck, panting heavily. Both trying to bring down their heartbeat and breathing to a normal pace.
"That...was..." spoke Takumi.
"Mind blowing..." Finished Satsuki, planting tiny kisses along Takumi's neck, wincing slightly as he felt the blonde slowly remove his wilting cock from inside of him, he was definately going to be sore now. Takumi then wrapped his arms around his waist and pulled them down onto the couch, laying side by side with each other. The vocalist nuzzled more into Takumi's shoulder, sighing contently.
"Aishiteru Takumi-koi..." He murmured sleepily, glad that he had made the right decision in not rejecting Takumi's love in the end.
"Aishiteru Satsuki-hime..." replied the guitarist, kissing the smaller man's sweaty forehead tenderly, glad to have finally confessed his real feelings for the smaller man, and had not been rejected either. Reaching up to pull down the quilt that was draped over the top of the couch, he wrapped them both with it, hearing his beloved's soft breathing as the man had already fallen asleep.
Chuckling, "I guess we'll have to take a shower in the morning then...oyasumi nasai my hime..." Takumi whispered into Satsuki's ear before allowing himself to drift off into the land of dreams and hopes, hoping he would dream of being with his beloved Satsuki. His arm wrapping around the small man's waist gently.
~THE END~